the start of freaking busy days

what's taking place in my life now?


the ALWAYSes:

single and available
sesat
fat
clumsy
eating monster
blur and slow

the HECTICs:
interview
30 finalist
pitching
damn bad connection
hp that runs out of batt
10 finalist
test
development camp
prom
3 on 3
labreports
project
quiz
fyp

i need less suddens to balance out my life
too much ups and downs has almost taken my breath away
i finally feel the stress, this is a real stress
the stiffness spreaded from neck up to the top of head
great pain in brain when u have to encounter the suddens and keep on thinking about the consequences while u are on another important task which due a day after.
really drop water on my head u'll see smoke that kind
couldnt hold the tears for times but i know that i gotta slave over all no matter what and so, swallow the fears!
seriously feel the shrink of my heart blended with sours
almost forget that it was mooncake festival and missed out some funs, perhaps... fine

are these coming to save my future or? but i feel that time is running out and i'm gonna miss out more...
suddenly need loads of support, support and support
and cares...
sometimes human just need some good words of comfort to boost their confidence, make them certain about their decisions and believe in themselves
and i'm definitely one of them

i'm just so scared that everything is too late when i have the gut to get what i really want
why cant it reach me just like one of those suddens? and my life will be balanced forever~ i always tend to picture beautifully but often the reality is cruel, the Cupid never pick me...

i desperately need love to support my mental...

And I said,
"Romeo, take me somewhere we can be alone.
I'll be waiting; all there's left to do is run.
You'll be the prince and I'll be the princess
It's a love story - baby just say 'Yes.'

Romeo save me; they're tryin' to tell me how to feel.
This love is difficult, but it's real.
Don't be afraid; we'll make it out of this mess.
It's a love story - baby just say 'Yes.'

watched Proposal Daisakusen some time ago and i love the message it delivers especially in the ending:
 
it's never too late to love unless you dont reach out for it,
wait forever, regret forever.