stupid day

i had choc sundae today with no one else but only me and myself, i tot it can reduce the depression and lost feelings in me but it proved otherwise. they were emulsified into loneliness and i started to hate myself for spending to make myself no happy but pathetic... even sushi taste different, or i should say no taste at all... started to hate this boring transition period, i wanna escape from all these, RIGHT NOW!

what am i

that distance that i could never cross over
you don't need me anymore or maybe you never did
maybe i should just disappear to make less annoyance
what are these feelings
i should've expected
a real hard time for me
i started to believe that my life is short
i think i will die at early age
i'm not qualified
i'm not worth anything

santa claus's promise

oh my god... where to find to get this idea of mine done... i thought some souvenir shops can do a custom made one but i failed to find...

would this be an undelivered present?

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